A Letter To Myself

I decided that I wanted to write a letter to myself, I read Halsey's letter to herself 5 years ago, that you can read here and it really touched me, I'm not gonna lie I cried a little but not as much as I did when I wrote my letter. I've said it before that I find it really hard to talk to people about how I feel yet it really isn't good for me if I keep my feelings tucked up inside so this was the perfect way to let my feelings out without having to actually talk to a specific person, because I was talking to myself. I honestly found this really good therapy, who says you need to pay someone £45 an hour to make yourself feel better, just grab a piece of paper and a pen and write. You might be sitting here reading this like, please I wouldn't even know what to say and trust me I thought that as well but once my pen hit that paper it all came out, a long with the tears, but i really feel like a weight has been lifted now and i feel a lot better within myself.

Georgina,

So it’s currently February 2015, Fucked up Kids by The Maine is currently playing through your headphone. You’re alone in your room and you’re in that in between mood where you aren’t sad but you aren’t necessarily happy either, the usual really.

Sometimes you get really sad for no reason, because of this you do a lot of things you regret, you disappear for days without telling anyone, you worry your friends but you learn to stop, you learn that it’s not ok to do that. You will learn that that it’s ok to be sad, you don’t need a reason to feel a certain way and one day you will be happy, truly. You’ve got great people in your life now, ones that love you and care for you and will help expand your mind and the ways you think and the ways you see the world. They will help you to think differently, make you want to live differently, live better, live happier. Please keep hold of these people, you need them, you need them to listen, to help you, to give you advice and they need you too. They make you happy and you make them happy and you need to remember to tell them how much you love and appreciate them.

You wear a lot of black now, also remember that time you wouldn’t be seen dead in a skirt or a dress? Well it’s all you wear now.

Bands and music are still a massive part of your life, the Jonas Brothers split up and you never got to see them live but don’t give up on love, have faith, restart. There’s this new band you’re obsessing over now, 5 Seconds of Summer, you’re sort of in love with them even if you are technically an adult and they’re all younger than you but its okay. Your mum doesn’t understand, she thinks they’ve changed you and not in a good way but they make you happy, they gave you friends and memories you will never forget and wouldn’t change for the world, so don’t let her thoughts stop you from doing what makes you happy, don’t let anyone’s thoughts stop you doing what you love. You need to start living for yourself, stop worrying about what other people expect from you and do things for yourself, you need to make YOU happy!

You don’t really have your life together right now but it’s going to be okay, remember you’re still young, you’re going to make mistakes and you will learn from them. You have the want to do it and you need to do it and you will do it. You need to make the change, make the change for the better. You have dreams, goals, and ambition and inside you have the motivation and ability to achieve them, I believe in you. One day you will read this back and you will see that I was right, trust me.

Read more, love more, listen more, experience more, believe more.

You can do this! Stay strong  and remember that nobody else knows what they’re doing either but we will all get there in the end.

Everything is going to be more than okay.

Love

Georgina x